So, I've said before that I've become caffeine dependent to get me through my 8am Theories class, and a lot of mornings that means stopping at Sheetz for a frozen mocha, sometimes with an extra espresso shot if I'm extremely tired. This morning, I went to Dunkin Donut instead because I have the $.99 month long coupon for a medium iced coffee. Well, I was feeling super tired because I don't think I slept restfully at all last night. I got a turbo blast of espresso added in. Worst idea I've had in awhile. I stayed alert in my first class, which is my usual assumption of "oh the caffeine is helping" (I never go crazy, bouncing off the walls, high energy from caffeine). Had a break after that class before my next class at 11. Was still fine, awake but calm. About 5 minutes into abnormal psych at 11, I got extremely jittery, my leg wouldn't stop bouncing, my eyes were darting around, I kept picking at my nails, tapping my pen. Basically, I looked like I was on drugs. This was soooo out of ordinary for me. Justin sits next to me and he noticed how I kept looking around and picking at my nails. Then after class when we were walking out, I was so high energy and I grabbed his wrist and was just like "why do I have to have classes next?! I would so much rather go out and have some fun with you and do something fun!" And he just gives me this look of "have you completely lost your mind?" because he knows this is NOT my normal behavior, and he was actually rather speechless. He left and I went to my next class and texted him "turbo shot was a bad idea" and sends back "you actually broke the skin on my hand lol", I guess I dug my nails into him pretty good lol. About a fourth of the way through my next class, I calmed down to my usual low energy level. I'm really surprised I didn't have a huge crash that knocked me to my ass.
My next class where I calmed down is social psychology, and that's a really interesting class. In this class, for the second time in my life, I got a paper cut from the plastic on my binder. So it was really a binder cut. But it's exactly like a paper cut, super thin line that hurts like a bitch with that burning feeling. We were also supposed to be partnering up and working on a sample answer for the essays on the study guide for our test on Tuesday. Yeah no. Jess and I were facebooking and playing games on our phones. Could potentially bite us in the ass when we take the test, lol.
Plus side, when I checked blackboard this morning, I saw that I got a 56.5/60 on my Theories test, no idea how I managed that one when I couldn't remember half the stuff I had written out beforehand for the study guide topics.
The ironic thing about spazzing out in abnormal psych class, was that my professor was discussing the bipolar disorders and talking about mania and hypomania. My own personal standard level of energy is pretty non existent, it's not noticeable when I have energy. Compared to my "normal" energy level, you probably could have labeled me as being in an extremely short episode of the hypomania state. Obviously, I was not really in a hypomania state because those symptoms have to last 4 days, and I was only highly energized for about 2 hours. But I think my behavior was probably a snippet of an example of what you might see in a person having a manic/hypomanic episode.
I also find it so interesting how the DSM identifies these disorders as serious, yet they know nothing about bipolar. According to my professor, the extent of what they do know is bipolar is probably about 40% biological, and the neurons in the brain of bipolar sufferers are different than people who don't have bipolar. There is a lot of contradicting between depressive disorders and bipolar disorders, which makes no sense because depressive episodes are likely to occur with bipolar. Like, inducing seizures can help reduce the symptoms of depression, but an effective treatment for bipolar is using anti-seizure medication. Also there is really no effective treatment discovered yet for bipolar because scientists can't figure out the causes of the disorder. The most effective thing found so far has been the naturally occuring element, lithium. But the side effects of this medication are so bad, that patients describe taking the medication to be more unbearable than the bipolar itself.
Anyway, I don't pretend to be an expert on this or find research on it, I'm only regurgitating what I learned in class and found interesting to me.
All in all, I had a good day. Nothing stressful to make me lose my mind. But nothing overly amazing either.