So much better now.

Justin is talking to me again. This is lifting so much off my shoulders now. Definitely feeling cautious and taking things slow though.   On another note, I joined this DateMySchool site, it's a dating site for college students and alumni, you...

I want to get better.

I WANT to get better. I want to feel normal. I want to have automatic positive thoughts instead of negative, anxious thoughts. I want to feel carefree. I'm going to continue taking my meds every day, and not (knowingly) skip any days. I'm...

Just another day.

I really need to start just posting more about my thoughts each day.. Reflect on my thoughts, make some positive statements about each day. I did 30 minutes on the elliptical this morning, and I did it all at once instead of doing 15, taking a...

Sudden peace.

All of a sudden, I just felt calm about the whole Justin thing. It set into my mind that he only wants a break and then we'll start over. We still have a friendship. The past week has been a huge stress and worry over whether he's done and not...

New beginnings?

Come to the conclusion that Justin is toxic to me right now. He's gone from constructive criticism to just plain criticism and focuses on my bad rather than encouraging my positives. I read some of our texts directly to Kristen today, and what she...

Stats class and therapy.

Statistics thankfully does not seem like it's gonna be too stressful. Verrecchia is seriously more relaxed in this summer session than during the fall and spring. He's a very straight forward, professional no nonsense kind of person. He does crack...

Strawberries, crafting and being lazy.

Picked over 11 pounds of strawberries last night. Freezing some to snack on, then we're probably gonna try strawberry muffins and strawberry cream puffs. Still working on Justin's graduation gift. Hoping I get it done this week. Start my summer...

Graduation gift: so easy & complicated

Well, my lack of focusing on a single idea has landed me with a brilliant idea on a graduation gift for Justin. Origami flowers, in meaningful colors and types of flowers. Flowers that mean friendship, also going to add some in his favorite...